Sister Helen IV

by Sister Helen

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about

We were Sister Helen for 14 years.

From age 10 til right before our 25th birthdays.

We made this album knowing that we would be broken up by the time it was released, that our decade and a half partnership would be over.

To everyone who stood by us, whether it was for 14 years or 6 months or however long- we can't thank you enough.

This is an album about friendship, and about reconciling hopelessness.

We hope you like it, and we thank you for being our friends.

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released January 13, 2017

Sister Helen is:

Nathan J. Campbell- Vocals
Chris Krasnow- Guitar/Vocals
Eva Lawitts- Bass/Vocals
Clint Mobley- Drums

All Songs written and performed by Sister Helen
Album Art by Alex Carlbon
Recorded, Engineered, Mixed and Mastered by Chris Krasnow

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Sister Helen New York, New York

2003-2017

Sister Helen was:

Nathan J. Campbell- Vocals

Chris Krasnow- Guitar/Vocals

Eva Lawitts- Bass/Vocals

Clint Mobley- Drums
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Track Name: Spark!
you would think i’d learn
my heart is hot and dry, at risk of fire
you would think i’d turned
my mind into a pile of tangled wires
you would think that i would think before i ever think again,
but even when
my mind is dark
static in my soul
will light the spark

friend, help me to come down gently
oh my God,
help me to come down gently
friend,
only you can prevent me
(oh my God,)
only you can prevent me
Track Name: Sense of Self
on the last night before the storm,
i had no idea at all
i thought that i saw you laughing
i guess that was all that i saw
this is the first day after the storm
and everything is wet through and through
and if this ain’t gonna be the last time
what will you do?

for your mental health,
exchange your sense of self
(so what? so what?
not much, not much)

i don’t know what to say,
i want you to be okay
(so much, so much,
now what? now what?)

and if you didn’t see me around
i was somewhere safe and warm
i was somewhere you couldn’t get to
taking shelter from the storm
and was that really all i could do?
as if i could live with the doubt
you were treading in the deepest waters,
could i pull you out?

for your mental health,
exchange your sense of self
(so what? so what?
not much, not much)
i don’t know what to say,
i want you to be okay
(so much, so much,
now what? now what?)

here in the eye of the storm you are almost sane
eyes like a rainbow caught up in the twisting rain
if you knew how to swim back to the shoreline then
we could rebuild, it would just be destroyed again
even in the eye of the storm
i couldn’t hold you in the calm
painted a rainbow onto your lips
and a secret under your tongue
the minute that you washed away
felt like a century to overcome
turning the wheel of your ship in a bell jar

for your mental health,
exchange your sense of self
(so what? so what?
not much, so what?)

i don’t know what to say,
i want you to be okay,
(so much, so much, so much)
Track Name: The Blending of Blue and Green
there are two colors in my eyes
blue and green
green when i look at you
and blue is me
i got you on my mind now
what would you do?
i know what i should have done
but i'm not you

so i don't want to know you now
I don't want to know
I don't want you to find out

i got you on my mind now
all of the time
and when you're on my mind
it's like it isn't mine

so i won't be compared to you
and come up short again
i don't want to know you now
i don’t want to know

and i don’t want to see you now
like a twisted mirror
everything that’s wrong with me
shows up crystal clear
so i don’t want to know you now
and i don’t want you to find out
Track Name: Fictive Kin
my name is Henery the Eighth, i am
that i am
Napoleon XV, no relation
i come in peace,
i come and go as i please,
i come to change the conversation


A man’s own fortress is the place
where every portrait has his face
good morning, gorgeous in disgrace

My name is Henery the Eighth, i am
that i am
the last King of Scotland, Idi Amin
i’m not joking,
i’m Shogun of all Japan,
can you see me?
a demon eating ramen

a man’s own fortress, paper-thin
to keep his torture chambers in

home and alone with myself; such an addictive sin
i’m looking after the health of one of my fictive kin

(it’s a family affair, it’s a family affair)


i AM A ViNDiCTiVE MAN
DON’T MESS WiTH MY FiCTiVE KiN
i AM A PROTECTiVE MAN
DON’T QUESTiON MY FiCTiVE KiN
i AM A SELECTiVE MAN
RARiFY MY FiCTiVE KiN
VERY iNTROSPECTiVE MAN
CARE OF ALL MY FiCTiVE KiN


sun sinks back down behind the buildings
light shoots from the ground to the penthouse floor
every day feels like trouble
every day seems like it's happened before
but you talk like you've still got pride
you talk like your words still mean anything
i think you came here to hide
i think you came here to get away

every day feels like trouble
every day seems like it's happened before
every day feels like trouble
every day seems like it’ll happen again

my name is Henery the Eighth, i am
that i am that i am that i am and no relation
i am a self that relates itself to itself
and itself is no relation
Track Name: Friend
when you watch your brother bleed
for once it's no use to pretend
and now that the hour of need is come
it's never going to end

when i think about it i am lost again
because the stakes were higher than they'd ever been
what could we do for him?
what could any of us do for him
now that the hour of need is come
it's never going to end

don't flatter yourself that you've earned this (you'll tear yourself apart-)
we have to call him friend (-without me, I'm biding my time)
no matter how helpless concern is (you'll fall apart with or-)
we have to call him friend (-without me, I'm biting my tongue)
again and again

though your failure's guaranteed it's time,
you have to call him friend
cos now that the hour of need is come
it's never going to end

and when i think about it i am lost again
because the stakes were higher and they've always been
what could we do for him?
what could any of us do for him
now that the hour of need is come
it's never going to end

don't flatter yourself that you've earned this (you'll tear yourself apart-)
we have to call him friend (-without me, I'm biding my time)
no matter how helpless concern is (you'll fall apart with or-)
we have to call him friend (-without me, I'm biting my tongue)
again and again
Track Name: Kaross Music
i get too scared to look at faces
it's all right it's all right
i think, what am i going to say to them?
it's all right it's all right

you wear these skins
against the world
how do you keep them in one piece
you wear these skins
against your skin
how are you keeping in one piece

pieced together, sewn together, thrown together
hold together, hold together, hold together

i want you under my blanket
it's all right it's all right
because i can't make my mind go blank yet
it's all right it's all right

you try to hide
forget the world
but it won't let you sleep in peace
you wear these hides
against the world
how do you keep them in one piece

neither wear nor tear
neither fish nor fowl
hold together
neither hide nor hair
neither horn nor howl
hold together

all your gathered threads
like a felted tent
hold together
things you never said
but you felt or meant
hold together
when the wind is sharp
and the night is cold
hold together
i am at your side
i am at your side
i am at your side
hold together
Track Name: Draw Near
i got a message for you when it’s quiet
i got the lightning and fog in my throat
i got a box with the key locked inside it
genius plan in a idiot code

my friend, i doubt if you can hear me
i said hands out if you can hear me

is my signal blocked?
i’m a war machine
under quarantine
i’m shell shocked
is my signal clear?
i’m a friend in need
but i’m hard to read
so draw near

i got a world in my head and it’s empty
i got the chance to be God and alone
why do you think that the power should tempt me
what do i want with a mind of my own?

if this world ends the way i’ve planned it
my friend i want you on my planet

if my signal clips
i’m a friend in need
i’m a mouth to feed
read my lips
if my signal dies
then unless you’ve guessed
it’s an S O S
it’s goodbye

now that things are quiet
i fall silent
i deny that
i’ve cried out in fear

you think we’re alone here
hold the phone here
to my wrong ear
i will strain to hear

now you are a doctor
now a helicopter
now you are a condor
hovering in clouds

now i am a patient
now i am a spaceship
monster in the basement
if you’re gonna say shit, say it loud

i get a desperate hope when you draw near
i get a sight of the sound and the strong
i have been trying to tell you this all year
but there is a demon that sits on my tongue
and when it comes i can feel it returning
it’s in my lungs and i’m screaming it out
and when i wake up and it’s three in the morning
Who will i tell what the dream was about?
Track Name: Commonplace
you always see them;
people i’ve learned to ignore
the ones i don’t question
‘cos they’re not mine to answer for
people who look like me,
people i look right through,
you can just feel them
and you feel them looking at you
sometimes they speak their minds
and their minds are all fucked up and sad
carry it with you,
you get shaky, get sharp, you get mad

the time has come to choose
to fight or let it spread
they haunt the words we use,
they slip into our heads
they’re stupid but they’re loud,
they’re many but they’re wrong
they slip into the crowd,
they’ve been there all along
unguided i am blind,
i just see the disguise
the truth is there to find
if i look through your eyes

i want to stare it in its face,
you tell me that it’s commonplace,
but that don’t make it right

however they justify,
i don’t wanna know, i don’t wanna know,
whatever they glorify,
i don’t wanna know, i don’t wanna know,
whatever they put you through,
shocked i didn’t know, shocked i didn’t know,
whatever they want from you,
shocked i didn’t know, shocked i didn’t know
whatever you wanna say,
of course i want to know, of course i want to know,
what’s a friend, anyway?
of course i want to know, of course i want to know

of course i want to know,
of course i am afraid
our bones ache as we grow,
our innocence betrayed
my innocence was guilt,
a washing of the hands
unfeeling what you felt
ungrounding where you stand
i know it’s my mistake
now i am clearer-eyed
whatever it may take,
i will be on your side

i want to stare it in its face,
you tell me that it’s commonplace,
but that don’t make it right
Track Name: Smoke Rises
friend, defend me
oh, God, help me
though i’m not who you thought

friend, prevent me:
i’ll come down gently,
gentle soul, with no control

control me, console me,
control me, console me,
Track Name: Forest Fire
i’m a forest fire in brightest summertime,
i’m so sorry you’ve come to this mind of mine
forest fires they fight in summertime
i’m so sorry you’ve come to this mind of mine

now you know what i crave about you:
this is how i behave without you
no don’t look at me now
why would i want you to see how i am
why should you give a damn?

i’m a forest fire in brightest summertime,
(I'm so sorry you've come to this mind of mine)
shine on, sun, it’s none of your concern
when i’m this hot something’s got to burn

for your mental health,
exchange your sense of self,
so what? (so what?)
not much (Not much)


if they treat this
like you treat me
i can beat this
easily

the worst thing i can think of
is to always be alone
so you burn the walls around me down
and tell me welcome home
but you say you think i’ll like it
can you feel the flame it feeds?
while you bide your time it's running out
when you bite your tongue it bleeds
it’s the worst thing i can think of
i’m deprived of privacy
i can never really think because
you’re always here with me

where’s there’s smoke there must be fire,
where there’s fire you are near
not a tree falls in the forest
when there’s no one to hear

now you know what i crave about you:
this is how i behave without you
No don’t look away now
Why should i care if you see how i am
Why should i give a damn?
Track Name: Last Man Standing
tried to write you a happy ending
wave goodbye
tried to blow you a farewell kiss

tried to give it a sense of meaning
don't know why
all i thought of to say was:

when you've done what you chose to do
and nothing else is required of you
you're left alone with the words in your head

don't ask me if you're doing fine
i'm a phantom of your mind
i'm the principle of the life that you've led:

you don't have to love your neighbor
you don’t have to share his labor
you don't ever have to care, no,
if you walk the straight and narrow way away

the ones who knew you enough to speak
the ones who saw you when you were weak
their voices silent but you know what they'd say

the ones you see when you try to sleep
the ones you thought you'd keep
Well we all need rest at the end of the day

(there's no one left to wave goodbye to)

(you are the last man standing, take your prize
look all around at their unblinking eyes)

there's no one to forgive you
there is nothing to forgive

do you think i’d be fucking leaving
if I knew
you were still going to need me?

do you think i would go believing
me and you
could ever wrap this up neatly?

some of the endings to my nightmares
feel more fair
than real life ever turns out

some of the angels of my nightmares
try too hard
party’s over turn the lights out